Well, it was bound to happen again sooner or later. My supervisor touched my freaking pen again. I haven't touched my pen since. At first I thought my supervisor was coming over to show me something online. I quickly put my hand on my mouse, so my supervisor wouldn't try to use it. But she got me. She went for the pen. It's always the pen. I need to start keeping it hidden, and have a 'decoy' pen out for her to use. Maybe I'll be brave and still use it instead of throwing it away.
This weekend was good and stressful at the same time. I really had the counting thing going. I hate having to do all that counting. On the bright side, though, I did do some art. It's a painting/collage type thing, and I think it turned out well. As fun as art it, it's also frustrating. I count certain brush strokes, cut paper a certain amount of times, and have to throw out supplies if I feel they are contaminated. Part of my picture included some glitzy rhinestones, and it was a pain in the butt to choose which ones to use. They had to "feel" right. Grrr. But, the picture is done, and I'd actually like to start on another one. My love of making art trumps my OCD frustration.
Monday, January 8, 2007
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Stumbled across your blog today. I have not been diagnosed, but am sure I have OCD.
I cannot stand for others (outside of immediate family) to use my pen. I always take my own pens to work and try to keep others for my boss or coworker to use if they come in my office.
I even started buying some kind of antimicrobial pen (not sure the brand) while at my previous job because of germs. (I worked with the mentally ill/mentally retarded in a group home and they were not good about hygiene and one client would eat out of public garbage cans!). But I have gone so far as to use hand sanitizer on my pen that my coworker used! I can definitely relate.
I too can understand this. When some one outside my family touches me i feel the need to wipe the "germs" off me. Also i have rituals like i cant step on the second to last stair. I have to touch most things 16 times untill im satisfied. I have to feel body symmetry like if i touch something with my right hand i have to do it with my left. I cant look at clocks at 3am. I reword sentences and phrases and repeat them in my head until im happy. f i dont pick an object up a certain way i have to put it down and start again until i have done it correct, when i put a cig out i have to circle the ash tray 2-5 times. Among many other things that if i dont do i think bad tings will happen.
OCD is so nad to live with but you have to just laugh some times :D
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